imagine&dream

i got pulled over. a new car, going too smooth. i didnt even realize i drove 50 (yes, thats what he said) where 25 is. well... i knew i had to come up with some strategy. i am a female - it will work. as soon as he approached, i smiled. he smiled back - a confused smile. asked for a driver license - never have it on me, its always in my other purse. so i gave him my work id, he asked a few questions and let me go with a mini-warning. cool, i told myself, it wasnt so bad for the first time being pulled over.

i had to work on the new years eve. sucks, but they pay double and its just another day, right? all guys that are trying to go out with me, wished a happy new year through text messages. even my ex-boss - the one who always does the first step (im somehow, according to a non-written rule, excluded from starting first. that annoys me!) so he texted me. 

by the ex-boss' number in my phone, i wrote dont answer, he doesnt deserve it. i was able to do so only till today the noon. cause i really had a bad temptation to see him tonight. we almost met and everything would be as always, and i would be sad afterwords, but they called him from work. had a sympathetic feeling for a sec: he doesnt call me often 'cause they have him work a lot. i know, its bullsh*t. 

yesterday, at the beginning, i caught his attention for a millisecond. yes, that amazing men. he had another girl - every party a different one. i know the only way how i can be interesting to him is to ignore him. so i did. later that night, he stopped me when going around with appetizers. he looked into my eyes, purposely for a second longer. i smiled ironically, fixed his tie, and turn my back to him. didnt look at me anymore. ill see him at another party with another girl. and what.

so im writing this cause i really wanted to see the ex-boss. 2009, can you imagine? i thought i would die as a virgin in 2000 according to all those scary forecasts of my then-friends. and im still alive - plus not a virgin anymore. actually, its been what... 6 years (and three days) since im not... funny story - it happened behind the church! once i have a minute, i will write about it for you. not today. today i wanted to make love to someone who im crazy about and who is not about me. on the wall, i hanged two pictures. one says imagine. the other one dream. doing both of them.