on the second.

So, he gives me two choices: movies or drinks. 930, I'll be there, I answer picking movies. He introduces me to the names of directors and makes connections from one movie to another, and we conclude not-happy-ending ones are those we both can watch. He is very touchy right from the start, but only towards the end of the screening, our hands get together. I can feel him even now, sweet cigarette scent left on my fingers.

We first kiss when entering an almost empty café place. It's midnight, Tuesday night, naturally, it's almost empty. Some more small talk, econ talks, school talk, language talk. Hes grabbing my hand, and I'm asking where we are going. Are you free on the fifth? I have two tickets to a punk-rock concert. His apartment is close, he says, I could get more tea if I wanted. Its only the second, im thinking, the second date for the professor of economics? He can do better than this, so I go to the metro, and we kiss good-bye. He whispers his apartments here, and I whisper next time. Have to catch the last train - I left bad panties on to assure i sleep home tonight. 

in love with mornings

a slight headache, its so odd to realize changes in your body by comparing it to your 'young' years when there was never any headache after any kind of mixing. something like waiting for the first gray hair. boiling the water for coffee, i am thinking about how it went yesterday. him showing me his gray hair when discussing our age. im telling him about Tunisia, Lebanon, and Sarkozy; he listens, smiles, and asks if i like vietnamese food. we will go, the next time, you need to try! we complain about horrible first economics phd year, even thou its been years since he did it, and im just in it now. he finishes my beer, wants me to cook dinner so i let him pay for drinks, and kisses my cheeks. 

yes, i think it went well. 

i stay in bed, finally, after a week of sleeping almost on the floor, so finally, i have my own place. on the seventh, no elevator, right under the roof, excited about staying home for rainy days, cooking dinners for nights in, making morning coffee, letting the water boil and sun get in through a roof window.