fall's obedience

summer is gone. just like that. i didnt know it was coming so early. but, i... simply... comply. i dont fight, i dont cry, and beg to stay. i dont think it would matter. so, i comply. accepting the rain, bringing bed sheets all the way to my nose, i comply by building constructive dialogues in my dreams. very constructive, very real. very complying. 

wait, wait, what about that huge pile of sandals i never got a chance to take out? yeah, its your fault - you did not have time for me. your fault. 

but: i comply. i will not fight, cry, or beg to stay. was a short summer love, thats all.

time to leave

we would talk about her on the phone. he did not like the way she dressed, the way she behaved, the way she lived. but she liked him. we were close, so-soo close and i let it disappear. i had to. 

party. i came late, but caught attention of all who were able to recognize still. guys who did not know me gathered by the table and wanted me to play drinking games. all that time i was there, i kept thinking how confident she is about walking into his room, how confident she is about him, how... oh how confident... and...

.. i will never go there ever.

time to leave this place. too much going on.

narocna

chcem: jednu masaz, dva kopceky zmrzliny - citronovu a vanilkovu prosim, vstupenku do cirkusu kde maju levov a baletky alebo aj slona, a ako bonus mi pribalte zimomriavky z dlhych bozkov. podam si inzerat. alebo skusim na trhu - medzi stankami s paradajkami a karfiolom, isto tam bude aj nieco z mojho zoznamu. ked nie, budem moderna: vyklikam si vsetko na ebay-i. amaznone. 

chcem jablkovu sezonu, ale aby este nebolo chladno. chcem zbierat male cervene jablka, ale nebudem ich jest. prinesiem ti zopar do divadla v kabelke, aby si nebol hladny. alebo radsej do toho cirkusu kde maju levov a slonov, mozno aj baletky a kanon, co vsetko vystreli na mesiac. vstupenku zozeniem na ebay-i, uz som si to premyslela. a bude to lepsie nez divadlo, lebo do divadla nemozem brat kabelku s jablkami. divadlo je pre snobov, takych akym si ty.

a chcem ist aj do toho amazonu - preco by som nemohla byt narocna?! chcem mat vsetko dokonale: knihy na policke, bez prachu, vyrovnane postelne prikryvky, rano ranajky, obed na obed, a vecer teplu veceru. chcem mat vsetko zorganizovane, tak mi bez kupit zmrzlinu. s dolnou kopkou citronovou a hornou vanilkovou. a kup aj nejake zimomriavky na moje bozky. potrebujes drobne?

  

a beach day (a bitch day?)

i even surprise myself. suddenly, i find my body on the dance floor realizing how good of a showman i am. my flexibility avoids any dangerous contacts of my partner's hands and finds freedom i need. im in every corner, the rooms is filled with me, everyone notices me. and, i am just enjoying the dance. like it was the last one. for you, baby, for you.

going for sushi, its the only food place around open so late at night, i sober up a bit. my speech is not nice and fluent yet, but i know i can drive. tomorrow is a new day, i need to leave. the guy i am with expects a bit more, but for me its a friendly date - i need to leave now. i have tons of other friendly dates on the waiting list.

screw the waiting list, im burning my butt on the beach today