i want

i am tired of it. guys walking by and saying hello, trying to start conversation, or just acting stupidly smart. starting with that one in his forties, who keeps three jobs. big belly, curly hair and mustache (not curly), and a stupid attitude. anyway, he asks me what im doing on saturday. (hell, not spending it with you - im thinking). girl does a little chit-chatting  from time to time and waves saying hello and he wants to go out with me?! what the..

another one started conversation: so how long you have been working here? ah, four years, i said. only? he responded. well, im not that ooold, i raised my eyebrows. i excused myself for having a lot of work. i know he just ment he had been working there forever, but... oh, come ooon. 

polish guy, mechanic. drives by five times per three hours, smiles like a star, and always asks in polish how i am. it is obvious im terribly bad in speaking polish, yet, he always starts like that. besides, what could possibly change from 5 to 615 that he asks the same sh*t.

girlfriends call me heartbreaker. no, i say. if you give someone a chance, then you might be called like that. we are leaving the 24-hour breakfast place and within 10 minutes im desperately trying to get them leave while they are having so much fun because that guy in white is trying to claim i broke his hearth. see, we told you you are a heartbreaker a few hours ago.

im just not interested. all i want are those who i cannot have. isnt it sick?!